Do it, NOW.

I haven't updated the past few days. It has been a roller coaster of a week. My mood has not been a good one.

Last night I ended up not being able to sleep. I started reading more of The Happiness Project. I was putting myself through the usual list of excuses such as "I don't have time for this" when I realized I had time right then and there. Gretchen Rubin started her project by writing down commandments for her self to follow. So I went and got a piece of paper and wrote my first commandment: Do it, now. One of my major problems is I procrastinate, or make excuses about time. But I've realized that a lot of the tasks I put off can be completed in 10 minutes or less. They only take longer because I put them off for days or weeks. Then they become huge chores. So this morning, while getting Jayden's cereal out, I realized what a horrible mess our kitchen cupboards are. Cans were knocked over, bags with less than a serving of pasta scattered about, more juice than I knew we owned, etc. I thought about it and remembered my first commandment. Of course, I had to feed Jayden first (he still hasn't mastered utensils good enough to where I trust him by himself). But as soon as he finished eating, I tackled the two messiest cupboards. It only took about 20 minutes, and I found food that I was able to use for dinner tonight instead of buying something else. I felt proud. Next area I need to tackle is my closet, but it's going to be more than a 20 minute task. I want to try on my clothes and see what actually does fit, what can fit if I loose a couple pounds, and what should have been thrown out months ago.

Even though I was excited about my morning accomplishment, J and I got into another silly argument which sent me back to bad mood land. I feel so bad for getting in crappy moods around Jayden. I should be taking that time reading to him or playing with him but instead I sit there sulking.

Tonight I plan on finishing up my commandment list, and hopefully getting started on my goal planning. But first I need to get some school work done.